it's when we glitter in the grime we truly shine.

 shot by: Emily Friend

shot by: Emily Friend

I've recently been plagued by nothing but negative thinking seriously the darkest thoughts I've ever had. For the first time, I was afraid, afraid of life.

I felt the bind of time. My mortality ticking away, burnt out and uninspired as if nothing mattered. Guilty that my negative thoughts have stressed my family,  friends, and my partner. Selfish, but selfish because I could find reasons to smile but not a reason to feel. As if I've exercised every avenue of thought and that I was just going to live my life looking through a portal of dreams of who I could be, or could've been and I don't want that to be true!!

It can't be true.. this reality is my only dream!!!

I want to break free of this thinking and I need somewhere to exercises my creativity and share my experiences. 

My biggest inspiration for life is humanity. To me, I observe Humanity's actions as a canvas woven into the fabric of the universe intertwining the physical and metaphysical painting our lives out in a burst of explosive struggle.

If I can use my time well. If I can connect, share, learn and love I am truly happy.

So I endeavor to hopefully inspire and relate with as many souls as I can within the readings on these pages.

I am a firm believer in shaping your own destiny in search for your true self.

But I'm realistic in my search for this happiness and I know that as long as I'm alive I'm never going to be 100% with everything in my life but I stand by these words my Dad once said to me, "It will all be ok in the end. If it's not ok, it's not the end." 

josh-deane gower